I Let Light in and I Feel Much Better

I live with anxiety and depression all year long; however, it hits the hardest December through February. It could be the cold climate or the fact that the sun goes down by 5:30.  Either way it makes basic tasks near impossible to complete.  After a few near nervous breakdowns yesterday, I sat and thought about the triggers.  For me; cold, darkness, and clutter top my list.  Since I am the only one in my household with this condition.  It is important to communicate what I am feeling.  It is not always well received initially but is still necessary.

When you tell your family that clutter contributes to your depression it could sound like an attack.  Choose your words carefully so your loved ones are less likely to go on the defense and more likely to consider small ways they can help.  Sharing my feelings and experiences was my first step.  Even if you live alone, telling your loved ones can help.  It may help them understand why you may seem distant.

I discovered that I was causing part of the problem.  I had room darkening window treatments in my bedroom.  I took them down and even though the sun was not shining, the change let in light.  I felt my mood changing almost immediately.  Now all my window treatments are white or semi sheer.  It’s only day two but I can say getting out of the bed was not daunting as it was the day before.  I opened my eyes and smiled at my surroundings this morning.

I don’t have control over the weather.  However, making my home as comfortable as possible equips me to go out and face it more positively.  Even if the only thing getting me through the day is knowing my comfort zone is waiting for me to return, that is a start.  I am taking it one day at a time.  Today I feel great.