This morning was a tough one. I was not in control when I woke up. Anxiety was ruling me. I don’t know why. I usually can identify my triggers but not today. I woke up anxious. The thought of getting out of bed and leaving the house had me panicked. Fighting against it had me exhausted.
After maybe a half hour of trying to reason with myself, I concluded I just wasn’t ready. Fortunately today was not a day when I had to force it. I had some leeway. I took it. I went back to sleep. I just took a brief nap, less than an hour. Then I started my day. It would be a day of routine errands, nothing too heavy.
While I was out I felt that cloud of anxiety creeping over me again. First at the bank. Then at a few more of my stops. When I arrived back home I was discombobulated. I found myself walking from room to room for no reason. I eventually sat myself down. I went over my to do list and saw that I was done. I sat and ate quietly. Then I went into the kitchen for therapy.
I made baked glazed donuts for the first time. The task took me roughly ninety minutes. It was a quiet and calming ninety minutes. As I prepped, measured, and mixed I felt at peace. This is all I need; quiet and my kitchen.
How do you cope with anxiety?