Shira’s Kitchen

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Cooking at Home

Bought myself a present. I haven’t bought or used a cookbook in over a decade. I thought it’d be nice to have one good cookbook to reference.  This will be my kitchen Bible.

Yes, I know it’s all on the internet but there is something nostalgic about a hard cover cookbook. This one is over 600 pages. I plan on reading it from cover to cover.

If you’re curious about what’s inside, check out my Instagram in the coming weeks for updates. I fully intend to post pics and videos of all the recipes I try from this book.

Stay tuned!

Cooking is Therapy

This morning was a tough one. I was not in control when I woke up. Anxiety was ruling me. I don’t know why. I usually can identify my triggers but not today. I woke up anxious. The thought of getting out of bed and leaving the house had me panicked. Fighting against it had me exhausted.

After maybe a half hour of trying to reason with myself, I concluded I just wasn’t ready. Fortunately today was not a day when I had to force it. I had some leeway.  I took it. I went back to sleep.  I just took a brief nap, less than an hour.  Then I started my day.  It would be a day of routine errands, nothing too heavy.

While I was out I felt that cloud of anxiety creeping over me again.  First at the bank.  Then at a few more of my stops.  When I arrived back home I was discombobulated.  I found myself walking from room to room for no reason.  I eventually sat myself down.  I went over my to do list and saw that I was done.  I sat and ate quietly.  Then I went into the kitchen for therapy.

I made baked glazed donuts for the first time.  The task took me roughly ninety minutes.  It was a quiet and calming ninety minutes.  As I prepped, measured, and mixed I felt at peace.  This is all I need; quiet and my kitchen.

How do you cope with anxiety?

Wanna Get Away?

I’m one of those people that benefit greatly from an occasional change of scenery. My problem is when I need it the most it seems to be out of reach. I go through periods when I have no days off. It leaves me exhausted and longing for a vacation. Where could I possibly go if I only have one day off a month?

In my experience being self employed in my line of work is so much more stressful than working in corporate. However, when I weigh everything the rewards make it worth those stressful periods. If given a choice I would not go back.  I’ll take several contracts with no days off to offset the times where no offers are on the table. It seems logical that I would use that time period to recharge and take a vacation. Sometimes I do. Other times I don’t in fear that I’ll get an offer while I’m gone.

So now there are two issues. I either barely have a day off which doesn’t allow time for a vacation or I have weeks off and am afraid to leave town. I have found staycations to be the solution. I can spend just one night away from home. I don’t miss any opportunities. I get the much needed change of scenery and usually I return home refreshed.

You may be thinking there’s nowhere to go in your home town. Look closer. Check out your towns tourism guide. You may discover a new place to stay or rediscover a place you have forgotten. I just came back from a night just over my state line. The drive was under 60 miles. I got to experience the shopping, dining, and hotel hospitality. It was just one night but it was enough. I’m in a good head space to return to work. I’m already looking forward  to my next escape.

More to Come

It has been a while since my last post.  I have been keeping quite busy but still wanted to check in.  I am fine and well. Many things  are in the works for what I hope will be an exciting new year.  I prefer not to share what is coming.  Instead I will share some of what has been keeping me away.

I have been fortunate to be quite busy with my brand ambassador and promo work.  I have also gotten plenty of audition opportunities lately for which I am so grateful.  I have even expanded my online selling to some degree.  The last few weeks have been literally no days off.  I am exhausted but mostly I am grateful.

I am grateful for friends and strangers that have offered their support.  I am overjoyed to be surrounded by people, women mostly, that are genuinely happy for me.  There is no competition, no jealousy.  It is all love and support.  I am grateful for all that take the time to visit my page and leave comments; private or public.

It is my hope to be able to reveal all that has been in the works by January 2020.  In the meanwhile I just want to say, thank you.  I appreciate you.  Your support continues to motivate me.

Always grateful

 

 

I Was Wrong

“I was wrong.”  For some those are the hardest three words to say, but why? I strongly believe admitting when you are wrong is essential to personal growth.  It is also a marker of ones self awareness.   No one person is always right.  That is human; and it is okay.  The problem only arises when we realize the wrong and cling tight to it despite knowing.  We have all said the wrong thing or made the wrong decision be it intentional or not.

Pride can be a double edged sword.  Remembering that helps.  I admit that I continue to be a work in progress.  I believe I have made improvements.  The people closest to me though may say different.  I am trying to take the time to step out of situations and see them from different angles.  I know I push self care and perseverance.  At the same time self care should not push consideration for others out the door.  There is a balance.

It is a process as is everything.  Changes generally are not made overnight.  It doesn’t happen that quickly; however the decision to improve can be made in an instant.  It is not a straight path.  At times you will fall short.  I have.  What is most important is admitting it and moving forward.  I was wrong.  I will likely be wrong again.  When I am, I will acknowledge my wrong, acknowledge people that may have been affected, and move forward in growth.  This may require examining the entire situation.  In other instances it may be necessary to leave the whole incident in the past.  Knowing the difference is another topic entirely.

No matter how independent you may be it is important to not rely solely upon your own understanding.  Seek out a reliable “mirror.”  I use mirror to describe any reflection of myself or in this case yourself.  You may see yourself from another point of view by using your “mirror.”  This could be a close friend, a relative, a spiritual guide, etc.  For me it is typically my partner or prayers answered in other forms.  Just be willing to see yourself as others see you.  Be willing to see when it is necessary to say those three words.  Try not to say them begrudgingly but out of a place of sincerity and grow.

August Already?!?

Where did the year go? Wasn’t it just January yesterday? That’s how I feel.  I’ll wake up tomorrow and everyone around me will be playing Christmas songs.  Slow down! Did your year move fast too? Since we’re already into the last half of 2019, I thought I would take a moment to look back on what I have accomplished this year.

At first glance, it doesn’t seem like much being that January was just yesterday.  Still let me take a look back.  In January I was able to shoot two commercials before eloping, honeymooning, and then heading to Superbowl Live for a ten day gig.  That was a busy month.

February moved in slow motion.  It’s the shortest month of the year but it felt like the longest.  March through July were basically one month.  Though during that time I was able to add a few more clients to my promo resume and meet some wonderful people at tradeshows.  I ran into some of my favorite artists/actors while working background and going to auditions.  I was even able to sneak two more getaways in.

Now that I’m looking back I see I have actually made some moves this year and I am adding to my calendar every day.  I woke up feeling somewhat defeated by time but that was the wrong attitude.  That’s something else I have been working on this year, perspective.  Someone told me I should approach tasks with the perspective of “I get to” instead of “I have to.” It’s a way to find positives in things I otherwise wouldn’t.  I could easily focus on things that went awry but that does not benefit me.  In fact, it harms me. Instead I choose to shift my focus elsewhere.

That’s how I plan to spend the rest of the year, focusing on the positive.  Whether the rest of this year flies by or drags on I will make it my goal to find good in each day.  Some days may be a challenge but I happily accept that challenge.  I am so looking forward to what is ahead waiting for me.  May you spend the rest of the year getting to do things that you love.